The OLE..What i Get?

Past through this few days OLE,actually i still wondering that for myself, what i get through this events?
I was just keep asking and asking myself,but i found the answer last night, during the sharing section, that was first time that i telling my group member about my own feeling...the feeling is just like a stone was drop from my heart...as well listen other member story, i really get something...

That is....FRIEND really is the most important thing in the world beside Love and Family, one of my member was just 17 years old girl and she was indonesia Chinese, she left far away from country, home and family friends just to be here for study...she was so shy and so strange with the new environment...after listen to her story , there is a image appear on my mind "She was really a brave girl to make decision so far from family and home and came overhere to study"

Yes, not only her, there are other country student as well was so far from their family and home to study oversea, so even my job as Faci for that short few days, but that will have mine responsible to take care of them everyone for the future...I might be their Faci for that few day but when out of the events....we are friends

Nice to meet you all and wish that anything that need helps, i able to give my best

我的命运是我订还是“你”订的？

以前总觉得事事都是我所想要和控制的，一件事还没到结局也已经知道了结果。。
这感觉就像我在操控命运和一切。。。可能真的想得太天真了。。。

现在我眼前所见的，并不是我所要和希望的景观。。。为什么竟然会远远的跑出我所想要的

“小鸟在空中盘旋找寻落点，好不容易看见了，但接近之际却只是个假像”

如今，我就像此句中的小鸟，看见了订了目标，但将要接近完成，却换来一场空。。。而不是我所预想的。。。那我的命运还有何意义？我竟然无法掌控去向。。。。

好空虚。。。这还不够吗？夺我所爱，如今还想夺走我的人生。。。朋友，家人，爱人。。我感觉都慢慢离我而去。。。。

你们不是说 “上帝”订我们的命运吗？！为何“你”是如此的不公平。。。。